Life is funny. Things happen when you least expect them to, but I’m ever so grateful that they did.
A couple days ago, I managed to get so depressed literally did nothing all day except curl up in a ball and cry all day. ALL DAY. Incredibly unproductive. I was hitting my rock bottom.
I was trying to do anything I could to stop being sad that day. I read first couple chapters of my self help book on my kindle, actually spoke with my mom for once, I went back to prayer.
I grew up with a Christian upbringing and got away from it when I got to being in high school. I still believe in God but I’m not the best Christian in the world; far from it.
Then something just clicked. I don’t know what it was. The tears just stopped. I stopped being sad, I stopped caring, I was just done.
I have barely thought about it since! Usually it takes me several weeks if not months to move on and do me from traumatic events but this time it was like a switch. If I were to guess, I might say that it had something to do with the fact this isn’t really the first time this person has hurt me. My ability to cry is notorious for being incredibly high but I think even I ran out of tears and emotion for this one chapter of my life this time!
“Stop looking for happiness in the same place you lost it.”
I even went out last night! 🙂